birthday at the beach

it was a nice day after all. . .

I was awake early in the morning because i was asked to participate in the council meeting, the mid year evaluation. It was great knowing that we have covered much activities in the past months, or in the first semester. Then i have gone to manresa before seven o'clock in the morning since the evaluation starts at seven and so i did as told. we started very late, as i super late, we have started our meeting at nine, i wasn't surprised, of course it is not that unusual. I just thought, that if i go early i might cover a lot from the meeting. i asked to go earlier before them, because i am going to my friends birthday. I think our president was first hesitant in letting me go, but i guess my persistence worked.

So i arrived at the beach almost eleven, waiting really gets all the shit out of me. the travel was mostly of waiting,because they still get other people to sit in their jeepney. The beach as usual have been vibrant and beautiful as it always was, even if it have gone through a tragic storm last January because of the typhoon who almost drowned the city. So there as i walked through the Grey sand it have always been a pleasure for me to feel every grain of it in my feet when i am at the beach. Then i saw my friends one by one as a walk through every hut in the beach. some families were there, as well as young people getting together with friends.I guess it was a trend for young people to go to the beach and have a little get together, and we have done it a lot since we are in third year high school. Then i saw johanna, then lyza, denz, deonne then the rest of the gang.


It was cloudy though, but the sun still warmed the oceans water and felt it as we dove in the beach's water. then we decided to come out of the water and wait for the water temperature to subside but before i could return from the water some of our friends have gone home early for some important reasons. So i decided to stay at the hut to look after our things for safety reasons, because my friends saw two people eying on our things and it sprung into suspicion. So there i read the book i longed to read, because all my time was taken during classes.I enjoyed the whole time with them, I enjoyed seeing my friends play in the water , joke as if we haven't seen each other for years. of course every moment is precious so i took pictures of them in the water and its just a pleasure that nobody cant take away. the view of happiness through other peoples smiles is just priceless.

Before they got to the beach water they still played truth or dare game. I hear their laughter, screams and other emotional gestures, hahaha, kidding aside. So as they played i silently read in the other cottage together with Cheska who is sitting beside Austin , Austin who is playing the guitar, divine and Cris. while i am sitting at the right of Austin.then i after a while they decided to get in the water. what i have loved to remember was when Denz held my hand so tight. never before have someone made me feel that grip and it was just so sweet. That is why i love my friends so much, because they made me see and feel things that others just couldn't do.because usually i am the one who hold so tight, so i also held her hands in return of her kindness.

Then i left for home earlier than them, because of the time, because if left together with them i might be at home later than expected of me to be there. then they gave me their sweet goodbyes and asked me to tell them if i am home with complete body parts. That i guess was yet a good day.

Friendship is yet an ocean of possibilities. they might hate or love you, either way we are still our own selves.

A Sunday Walk

The ray of the sun is unusually sweet today, for a tropical country like Philippines, it was a scene that can rarely be seen, can rarely be felt and so i decided to go on for a walk. I stayed in the veranda for a while as i sip my milk and have bite of bread. Then as i stayed there for a while, i felt that breeze of the air touched my face then my hair, it lasted for a little while but it seems like forever. It was sweet like a mother touches her newly born baby. Then i decided to go on with my walk, because its getting hotter and so as i leave our veranda. then i strolled a bit a have gone a bit far from home, and saw what i missed. I realized i really have been busy that when i walk i realize the time goes slow and i like just the way it is. I felt life like i never felt it for decades. And yes! it was like decades, reviewing and copying notes.Trying to withstand the challenges of four moths at school that seems like just a week or two, it ran too fas too quick that i cant barely breath. Just like for the first time i have seen whats behind our block, and wonder if whats behind it, and behind it and behind it or if after those blocks i will be in manila.That first step as i go out of the veranda was a meaningful one, it made me realize how fast time was, after a block of walking i have consume only five minutes
and in that five minutes i saw different people all doing their own thing. Yes it seems like an ordinary day but for me it was a day to remember once again it reminds me of the old times when iam not running out of time, when i cna freely play with my
playmates the whole day. I once again saw those smiles, those sweat that wet their shirt, those simple people doing their daily routine. And as i walk some more i heard the symphony of the 70's to early 90's that really mended every inch of me, then i realized how i missed those songs when all i hear now-a-days on the radio are of those nonsense musics( it sometimes irritates ).Then i passed a house where a family
dines their breakfast outside their house and it touches my heart because we were once like that when we go to our aunts house in tacurong( my dad's hometown).and lastly when the sky colored blue that was so serene,so pure, so true and it reminds me of the older times.


The old days when i saw my aunt prepare my milk, wash my clothes, tell me to wake up
in the morning and prepare my meals. The old days when the consequently play the same old songs every Sunday. Thee old days when i would prefer to watch cartoons than read my books. The old times when i rebel when my aunt forbids me(us) to go to sleep early. The old days when we ran,play,watch T.V, do stupid acts, play again and live life like theres no tomorrow. I guess that life is what i missed the most.

Once i have prayed to get old as soon as possible so that i could kick the ass of those bully's. As well as prayed that i could get rid of my aunt and her style in making us a good citizen of this country. But now i got what i want, i kicked the asses of some bullshits in school and got rid of my aunt when i am 11. After that I have my freedom and for years i have been enjoying the freedom i always prayed for.
But now i realized how good it was being a child, being taken extra care when you are sick or cheer you up when you are on the stage and doing things you dont like(i.e singing in public) because i dont usually do that.If you are free, you would soon realize that selfishness is a real NO!NO! in the world of adults. And once you have your freedom you are enforced to do things even if its not right for you,but right for all.More difficult challenges, lesser support from people and more critics around you.The more powerful you are, the more responsibility is given to you.

Life is but a walk,not a race to being on top. If much is given, much is expected.

The Council

I am up to something new, that's what i thought in the first place, and there it was being laid in front of me. I was voted third for the 1st year representative. yes! i gone too fast and it also have gone too fast that i prove myself as being a crap. They treat me well, yes, actually nice. so the first project they gave me was quite challenging for a "no one/nobody/always will be nobody" like me. Being responsible was never a part of me, then it changed when i entered the council. it was good at first but after i did the first project being responsible of all documents(i.e project proposal,liquidation and activity report)--of course with the help of my colleagues, specially our president. it had been a roller coaster ride, that i have never imagined before that could and did happened.then i was now again challenged with another project, it is a fund raiser for our intramural. But it did not end there, because even after intramural we still got orders from people from our college and even from the other colleges for its good style as well as the message that is imprinted in the shirt, which became our theme "BLUE BLOOD GREEN HEART" (blue blood,because we are an ateneo school.green heart because we are agriculturist we cultivate land). I was still afraid handling legal documents, especially the receipts, because it is highly needed in the liquidation process.It undergoes legal processes from the bureau internal revenue and commission on audit, because we gather a big amount of money. and without the original copy of the receipts the liquidation paper would be questionable.I was even warned to be very extra careful in handling the receipts, because i did once lost an original receipt from the last project that we handled and it was quite a bad experience. Now after this project i guess i would not yet accept heading in a project , because i think it is whats best for me and for the council and the for future projects that the council would undergo.I guess i have been too fast,but now i would do the right thing--it tells me to slow down cause it is a bumpy road ahead.


I guess going too fast nor going so slow wont make anything work.and that is what i personally experienced and indeed it was not so good. It was fun being with new people but if our own self is not yet ready to undergo change then it is still hard to go on into something new.i did accept the things that came when i entered the council, but i was damn tired thinking where in hell did the receipts go. especially now we spent P30000 for the shirt and for a middle class person like me? its quite big---oh no, its a very big amount. So if we go on to something we must be so sure that we accept and stand for our decisions because certain things are meant to be taken seriously at the right time.I never regret i have entered the council, but i should have entered in the time i know i could stand every challenges. I could, but i guess soon enough.I could stand bearing the heraldic figure of our college as one of the best college in the Philippines and in the world soon,enough.

semestral break

Okay----im not used with this thing---its quite formal. well anyway, so i gone through a lot of a roller-coaster-ride this semester, as a first year college i was so overwhelmed. And god where did i ever get the idea of entering the agriculture student council,yes! it was hella fun with them but it was tiresome and for a nobody like me? it was just like a million arrows struck me, i was caught off guard,in a good way. second i am walking through fire with my subjects and it gets me upset,sometimes---okay most of the time.third i have this ex-best friend sickness,it was long ago when we part ways, cause we know our friendship is not working. And lets just say that its quite personal. Fourth, house chores is such a pain in the ass, well i admit that i am not really into it thats why i am at times complaining. Ecstatic of my vication, though its not that long, but i am planning to stuff up my body cause i am--i think a bit skinny with my age--and the second day of my vication was such a relief, just watching dvd's i borrowed from my good friends, a cup of tea and finally type this blog up. and hopefully i'll enjoy this one. I know I must not expect too much, the least that i can do is, live life day by day and i guess the rest will follow. right, so i guess thats all for now.